I often sometimes reflect on why do we do the things we do. What’s the intent behind them? Why am I on my mat? My the heck am I getting up at 6am?!

What do we do when things that felt familiar no longer feel familiar at all? Like, it’s as if it’s something foreign altogether?

That’s how my body feels right now. This season, I embraced the lushy, slow movement and stillness and resemble more like a bear living in hibernation. Anything active is a struggle. I go snowboarding 1-2 times a week but I’m not gonna lie, it’s tough to find the motivation to get there.

So I think it’s time for me to wake up.

What a week huh? I hope you are doing ok. It was a frightening scene in DC and it’s not lost on me how the outcome would have been very different if it were BLM advocates instead.

We are going through a movement in human rights right now and as humans, we’ve been gifted with consciousness. We were taught how to talk and listen and learn.

I’m learning as I go but I can’t, as someone who practices yoga, not follow the Yamas and the Niyamas. These are the foundations of a yoga practice and guidelines on living this path. I have felt that when I divert from them, chaos overcomes my Self, anger, surprise, over felt sense of ego.

Happy New Year and welcome to 2021! I’ve a feeling that this will be a year of continued growth. And no, that’s not a nice way of saying ‘navigating another shit storm’ but more like graduating from secondary school to college. I don’t know about you, but I’m excited to see what happens. :)

As many of you know, I completed my 300hr a few weeks ago and I’m not going to lie - a few tears were shed. Somehow, our fearless leader Grace Jull led a beautiful virtual ceremony and it felt insanely personal.

Hi there!

I woke to the alarm at 6:30am this morning raring to go up the mountain for my first day of my snowboarding season. Only to find that my new bib had been left near the heater overnight and, well, it melted. I was devastated and truth be told, still am. I know it’s just material but I’d waited 4 years for the right one to come along and couldn’t believe my luck in snagging it as part of Burtons Black Friday deal.

As part of YTT, we have the opportunity to lead peer group classes. I thought I’d resurrect my slow flow to restore class and thread in messaging around the Vayus, something I haven’t even whispered in a class before.

I spent a ton of time studying and creating, prepping, the works. I was so nervous and excited at the same time that I actually lapsed into a state of emotional confusion.

As you know, I’m in my 300hr at the moment and as part of it we did a virtual meditation retreat. I know. I literally would have bawked at this 2 months ago. But now that I’m basically a citizen of Zoom-land it didn’t seem that outrageous.

Anyhoo, I heard the outline and though “Fuck yeah. I’m going to blast so far off into the universe with my zenness I’ll come back to earth and think I’ve landed in Nirvana itself.

Welp. It didn’t quite happen that way.

“Take a few extra breaths.”

I heard this in a class I took recently knowing it wasn’t the first time I’d heard it. But it was the first time I actually felt it. That I let it sink in.

Take a few extra breaths.

We’ve all been in a situation/ pattern where we just. don’t. stop. We layer on thinking that what we’re doing isn’t enough.

So I did two things recently that were kind of scary.

I deleted my Instagram app. I know it seems so silly but it felt like my lifeline to the outside world. And no, it wasn’t because of the documentary The Social Dilemma (definitely worth a watch by the way!) but because it was causing me a lot of angst. I’m a divil for the comparison and that sometimes loud voice would vibrate through me with ‘Do More!’, ‘Why didn’t you think of that??’, ‘You’re not promoting enough - not doing it right’. Oh Jesus the list can go on. Anyhoo - I took the plunge and signed off knowing that there are only so many small squares (cough cough Zoom) that I can be part of in a day.

Anyone else feeling the need for change?

I am.

Change isn’t the worst ya know? We’ve made some changes over here with our settings (now living that mountain life woooooo!) and couldn’t be happier. I LOVE Portland but funnily enough, it wasn’t a hard decision to make.

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Did you realize we’re in July? Well, basically. I know this is coming a day early buuuuuuutttt I had some news I couldn’t wait to share another minute soooooo HI! :D

I’m brushing up on my Yoga Sutras. And by brushing up, I mean I’m starting them for the umpteenth time. I’m not sure why I always drop them. I think that I try to take in too much too fast and my brain literally has a melt down. So I (restarted) ‘Living the Sutras’ by Kelly DiNardo and Amy Pearce-Hayden. Just like every time I do, it’s a different experience.